I'm so thankful to everyone who is so faithful in praying for me. I really appreciate your love, care and concern to upload me as I serve Jesus here in the north eastern parts of India. I'm so excited to go back home to see my family and to refresh, and rekindle my passion to serve Jesus.
At this point in my life I really need God to refresh me. I feel like I'm in a season where I have to struggle and constantly encourage myself to keep going strong for Jesus. As I reflect back to look at everything that had happened here in my YWAM base, I feel more disappointment than encouragement.
It's true that there are so many testimonies of how God worked in the lives of the local community, but when I look at the other part of the story, I'm really discouraged. My biggest discouragement is that there are so few workers who faithfully serve Jesus here in Arunachal. I don't feel spiritual dryness but disappointment. It's so easy to fall into disappointment when we don't see any fruit for all the prayer requests that we have made. Although I know that my hope should be in the person Jesus and not in the outcome or the results, I'm beginning to deeply understand that knowing it is a whole lot different thing than to actually experience it.
There were two incidents that had happened this month in which I felt the presence of God so very strong. The first was in a house filled with brokenness. A mom who has five children had been cheated by her husband. He got into a relationship with a another woman, ran away with her and married her leaving his five daughters fatherless. As we prayed for the family the presence of God was so strong. There was much tears as my team and I comforted them.
Apart from the fact that their father was in a relationship with another woman, he had left them because he wanted a son. In this culture having a son is more valuable than a daughter. Over time many people have changed and started valuing daughters but I'm sad to say that there are more people who still don't value a girl child. My team washed the feet of the family members as an act of protection by God over them.
As we encouraged them that God is the father of their house the presence of the spirit was so strong and they were weeping and weeping.
The second incident was in our Friday night fellowship. I was given the opportunity to preach. This was the last fellowship for this year and there were only five members plus me. They are my team members. Only six of us were there in the fellowship. During the worship the presence of God was so strong that everyone were weeping. I was the one weeping the most because the Lord spoke to me something that I did not want to hear. He said ""you look more strong on the outside than the inside"" It's true I'm a person who can be easily shaken. I believe the Lord has already given me something to focus on for the coming year 2015. I prepared something for the message but during the worship God gave me a whole new message that was perfectly what our base was going through. There was so much weeping because the Lord's presence was so tangible.
